I’m sorry I have been so quiet lately, it isn’t like me to not have much to say!
My life has literally taken a sharp turn in a completely different direction and I have been hanging on tight with both hands as it pulls me along. It has been an amazing week with lots of new friends, food, experiences and opportunities popping up everywhere!
I just want to share with you that in the last couple of months I have been really up and down – lots of breakdowns with binge eating, self esteem, relationships, exercise and my overall happiness.
I know that life can be hectic, and it is so easy to feel overwhelmed, upset and depressed about your current reality if you are working a job you hate, feel like you are stuck in debt, in an unhappy relationship, feel like your diet and image doesn’t reflect who you really are and especially when you don’t like what you see in the mirror.
There is a cure for this ‘life rutt disease’!
I have been pointing the finger of blame at everyone and everything around me in the last couple of months for everything I have been unhappy with in my life.
It was my jobs fault, my friends fault, my boyfriends fault, my lack of finances fault, my bodies fault…everyones fault but MINE!
Last week, I had a major breakthrough…I realised I can CHOOSE my way of being, in every single second of the day. I can CHOOSE my thoughts, my reactions, my actions and who I will be.
Since I have got that, and taken responsibility for all of the times and circumstances that I have been out of integrity with the person I want to be (Inspiring, Compassionate, Healthy, Fit, Understanding, Loving & A Contribution to other people’s lives) so much has changed for me! It has been 5 days since I took responsibility for myself and my life has been crazy! I have a new job opportunity in a field of work that i LOVE, I have met amazing people who I will be working with on very inspiring projects, I am comfortable to be in my own company (which has been a long time coming), I have purchased a guitar and can already play half a song and my happiness just keeps GROWING!
I had been expecting and seeking other people to ‘help’ or ‘fix’ me – to make me feel better.
I know a lot of people do this, we use drugs and alcohol to deal with or avoid intense emotions that are unpleasant to feel, we get addicted to having intimate relationships with others to validate ourselves (and when these relationships end we become clingy, needy and feel completely lost and alone), we do crazy and dangerous things to our bodies to look a certain way in hopes that we will be accepted by others, and we say horrible, hateful things to ourselves that we would NEVER say to the people we love.
Are’t we CRAZY!
Yes and No.
We are HUMAN.
We need to stop making ourselves feel guilty, not good enough and wrong.
I just want you to know that if you have felt or currently feel this way, you aren’t alone.
Also, YOU can change it.
I will post more about this, and have Kat Dawes (creator of NOW-ism) sharing more about this in this weeks
INSPIRE-A-THON Thursday post.
Until then, start having a look at the areas in your life you are unhappy, look at the people you blame and look at where you want to be. Write it all down so it is looking back at you and start taking responsibility for yourself.
I wish for everyone to be happy and content with themselves and their lives, and I hope that me sharing and being honest and open about my personal stuff can help
I will chat to you again soon, until then, here is some food porn and vegan activities photos.
I hope you are having a beautiful day/night – wherever in the world you are xxx